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4:15 AM - Monday, Nov. 27, 2006 It�s stressing me out. And anytime I think about it, I just want to forget I even exist. I feel like I�m in this constant battle with my own body, and I can�t seem to sleep very well at night right now because it�s always lingering in the back of my mind. I hate the idea of not being able to have children. I don�t like the idea that even if I do get pregnant, I�ll either miscarry or give premature birth. I hate the idea that I am possibly at a high risk for ovarian cancer. I don�t like knowing that I�m stuck taking bio-identical hormones for the rest of my life. They taste awful, and yet I have to absorb them between my cheek and gum twice a day. Every now and then, I feel a slight pain where my ovaries are. Sometimes it feels like somebody is stabbing at them with a knife. Other times it�s a dull ache, like I�m merely cramping. Whatever is going on, I hope they figure it out soon. I�m sick and tired of worrying, and I would love to be able to sleep at night.
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